I've been doing a lot of travel, drinking alcohol, going out late, sitting in smoky bars, and seeing friends and music and all. I knew I was feeling really good and wondering when it would end.
Looking back I see signs..the headaches, the night sweats, the sinus pressure, the afternoon fatigue, the lathargic mornings, the vocal chords that weren't there, the feeling off.
It wasn't until we had 3 strike out sessions for lead vocals that I realized I hit my wall and needed to slow down. And slowing down was something I was dreading because it meant being a little self-reflective about my life. Sometimes you don't want to think. You just want to live.
Anyhow, I tried a bunch of bodywork and it was all lovely, but by this past weekend it still bloomed into full blown illness...the weak throat, the wheezing, the incredible fatigue. And I couldn't take it. I felt like I was falling into that spiral that was all too familiar and I never wanted to experience ever again.
So thank god for the people I've worked with over the last few years. I don't have to wait and wonder and worry. I call and they take care of me.
Acupuncture was on order for today and we found lots of lung stuff going on, and after the needles I swear I haven't felt my throat and upper chest this open in a long long time. And then I get to put these herbal crystals in hot water and drink down a sugary antiviral/antibacterial tea. Yum, sugar.
It's also at this moment that the advantage of having a co-producer becomes exponentially clear. I would have tried to plow through the vocal sessions, and kept on my trend towards burn out like I had with all my past projects. But with outside ears at the vocal sessions (and really good ears) it was a no brainer to stop.
So while I allow my voice time to heal and my body time to get its mojo back, we'll excerise the bend and not the break. There is plenty to do that doesn't require my body to have my back: guitars, strings, album art, etc. Now if I can only sit still long enough.
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