Bookends

Heather Kropf - Photo by AshleyDru Photography

I let go. I trusted it would all work out. And just like that, it seems, the album is nearly done, the release party is scheduled with the core band members of my choosing, and it's all funded with my tax refund. Rather miraculously it all flowed so effortlessly. Flow is uncharacteristic for this album of chapters, learning curves, starts and stops. I'm happy for it. God knows we all need a little ease in our lives.

And it's all coming up roses except the sequencing of the tracks. One of my favorite songs is Bookends by Simon & Garfunkel. I especially like it following Old Friends on that album. There's something magical that happens with pairings and groupings of songs. The sequence matters.

I'm after some of that Bookends magic and it's so elusive. I have been trying to sequence my album's songs and it's frying my brain and testing my patience. The concussion symptoms kick up just slightly, I'm also going off my meds for the concussion so I'm a little more spacey, headachy and drugged out, and it's the bluster of spring...a confluence of volatile energy. Yesterday I was looking for a fight. I wanted to punch something (or someone) and I wanted a whiskey in my hand. I was so over it.

But I rode it out and today it all settles down a little bit. The song order is falling into place - just 4 center songs to sequence now -- the prescription detox is easing a bit, and I'm not so temperamental. It's easier to smile to myself. We (over 150 crowd funding backers, 14 musicians, 5 engineers, 4 designer/artists!) have made something that I'm so proud of. My release date and release party announcement is May 3. After many long months in metamorphosis, I'm just about ready to release Chrysalis. My love for Bookends refers to many things beyond the song.

time it was

and what a time it

it was

a time of innocence

a time of confidences

long ago it must be

I have a photograph

preserve your memory

there all that's left you

- Bookends, Simon & Garfunkel